even if it kills me.
so, i ended up making a doctor’s appointment even though my doctor is on vacation until the week after next. i saw a nice enough doctor though i felt extremely rushed. turns out i have a rotator cuff injury.
it looks like finishing P90 during H4H and before i leave for indy is not in the cards, the exercise gods have apparently spoken. but this does not mean failure and this does not mean giving up. i will rearrange my workout plans, listen to my body, and still bust my ass during this challenge. and i WILL be hot for halloween ;) …even if it kills me.
i’m trying to keep a positive attitude but truth be told, i feel devastated. i think sometimes i have this all or nothing mentality with weight loss and so now that i know i cannot complete one of my original goals, i feel like such a failure. and that really sucks. the “old” kayla would have just given up the challenge and exercise all together if i couldn’t complete my exact goal. the “new” me knows that i am going to see this thing through the end and i am going to be successful.
in reality, so what if i can’t finish P90 before H4H ends and before i leave for indy? who is going to really care besides me? i doubt anyone is going to fault me for listening to my body and configuring an exercise program that doesn’t cause further injury. so why am i being so hard on myself?
today has been rough. extremely rough :(
